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I really don’t want to go to school this week.

Not for the dim teenage incentives like because I’m merely too lazy, just don’t feel like it, or have finals.

I truly feel that students should be given at least a week’s worth of mental day’s when your personal/family life calls for you more.

Sometimes things become so difficult and exceedingly throbbing that you can’t put anything else ahead. I know this is tediously and repetitively said, but we all do have lives aside from school or our jobs. And not just in the alluding sense that for your own personal mental health you need time in reserve from school or work. More so that sometimes your personal life needs you much more. Society always presses this idea that school and work must always come first. I think that’s fucking bullshit and anyone’s a moron by standing by this.

Sometimes, other things need to come first, because if they don’t, you will drown in your own life’s timetable.

Sometimes, you have to drop absolutely everything that society or others enforce upon you to continually put first because you’re only human after all, and things happen in life that test that very fact.

Sometimes, you really ought to say “fuck it all” when you know something is much more fucking important.

I’m sleeping on a dog’s bed right now way behind on things because of unreal and unfair circumstances.

I’m torn between so many emotions. I just want to sleep but there’s too much to do.

My eyes are in a haze with my brain. Everything feels wholeheartedly numb and reserved. Everything seems like overall and inclusive blur. Everything is moving and blobs come and go. I’m so lost.

I know I can’t afford to sleep at all tonight, yet here I am. Typing this.

And I know I can’t just drop school for this week. My grades and parents wouldn’t allow it. Although, my parents would understand why I would want/need to. I have to suffer through this week and month.

But you know what? I’ve been really pulling through and being the best I possibly could these past few months. But this week, it isn’t the sort of circumstances you can just fake through and pretend isn’t there.

I really need to not go to school this week. My personal life can’t afford me to be gone all day long. I can’t go. I don’t want to go. I shouldn’t be expected to go.